Treehouse Blues **

I'll sit in my treehouse until the sun sets
and drink all dad's whisky and by morning i'll bet
that the world will have ended and stars will have died
and deep in the ashes of the grass there will lie

the seed of a flower, so inncocent, so pure
of which the silk of the petals, any disease, it could cure.
I will climb down that tree and spit on the dirt
because that flower never saved the ones i loved or this world

I will cry on my knees and stare into abyss
where, once, stood the sky, in its clear sky blue bliss.
And scream to the universe, the moon and the sun,
"Just because it's suicidal dones't mean grab your guns!"

I will wander the streets it an ecstasy haze
and upon your apartement, i will stop to gaze.
I remember the night, the night you moved in.
And we put on the beatles, around the room, we did spin.

And we fell to the couch and u kissed me deep
and promised we'd be together when the earth chose to sleep.
But i broke that promise and got drunk instead.
And let depression shake you dead.

Forgive me my lover, for last night i did sin.
I chose to be jealous that you got to grin.
Sadness engulfed me, and broke what of me was strong
and thats just the problem, i didn't hold on.

Untitled

Once there lived a peaceful two
with eyes of black, the other, blue
they slept quite close though far they strayed
from a passion they could not escape

They longed to kiss, to feel, to gaze
to break past their prison gates
One's knees were bruised from prayer
the other's tears did taste of care

And though their love was strong and bold
they began to hate who they could not hold
they fought and cried and left and lied
and soon their love no more did thrive

So now one wonders if they were wrong
the other can't turn off their song
They'd never admit to the crimes they've commited
let alone speak that the other's needed

But sun broke past the dark grey clouds
and one screamed its love for the other loud
The other's heart did sigh relief
its eyes of blue saw no more grief

Love can beat the odds set forth
as the once parted lovers learned in their course
Now tender embraces they both do feel
for the know "i love you" is what helped them heal.

We made it

First day back after the long holiday hibernation was a go.
The shallow task went ahead of showing off christmas gifts.


I've been working all night.
French
Enligh
Art
Repeat...several times.



Im so tired. Not just mentally, emotionally.
I just need to lie down with someone and nap
and feel them hug me when we do.

*Sighhh*

I miss being happy.
We barley made it.
Just
Barley.

Fucking lonely

SOMEONE FUCKING HOLD ME
IM WASTED DRUNK AND I NEED SOMEONE TO FUCKING MAKE ME HAPPY
CAUSE I HATE EVERYTHING AND IM FUCKING ALONE............ ITS NOT FAIR GOD
FUCK, ITS NOT FUCKING FAIRR R UGHHHH DFGIJRAEWRJA'SJFASLJF9WURQ23TURAIO45Q3R8H183O IFAEHWFNC74U1RPAELF;3'LTRL23TK23ICONB 374

Its impossible..

I have no negatives to write.
In fact, i have NOTHING to write.
Hm.
Boring.


I have heard still no word on the importance of being ernest cast list.
If i get the part,
or they do the show at all for that matter,
i will not memorize all my lines for february 15th.
that's impossible.
I have exams soon.

Jesus christ, does our local theatre have to be such a bother.
We waste our money
and do shit productions because the majority of members SUCK!
Like holy balls GLT.

Honestly.

Is it really true?

O l i v i a, Stoe. ( * ) You don't ask for no diamond rings says:
i know and im saying u were better off at a party then chillin with me


**** says:
why wud u say that? no wonder no1 invites u out to parties whe u have a mentality like that

















=/ now i really wish i wasnt bipolar

City and Colour are my lifee right now. So take a number Comic books and zombie apocolypse training :)

I awoke, only to find my lungs empty
Through the night, so it seems I'm not breathing
And now my dreams are nothing like they were meant to be
And I'm Breaking Down
I think I'm breaking down

And I'm afraid to sleep because of what haunts me
Such as living with the uncertainties
That I'll never find the words to say
Which would completely explain
Just how I'm breaking down

Someone come, Someone come and save my life
Maybe I'll sleep when I am dead
But now its like the night is taking up sides
With all the worries that occupy the back of my mind
Could it be? This misery will suffice

(Gordon Downey Singing This Verse)
I've become, the simple souvenir of someone's guilt
Like the sea, I'm constantly changing from calm to ill
Madness fills my heart and soul
As if the great divide could swallow me whole
Oh, how I'm breaking down

Someone come, Someone come and save my life
Maybe I'll sleep when I am dead
But now its like the night is taking up sides
With all the worries that occupy the back of my mind
Could it be?
This misery will suffice

Someone come, Someone come and save my life
Someone come, Someone come and save my life
Someone come, Someone come and save my life
Could it be? This misery will suffice




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