Miss

I have to be
without a doubt the most emotionally worn
out person in the world.

I'm in love with a person i have to be prepared
to never get to hold.

I have a father who doesn't believe in me.

An ex who's living everything i should be.

A writing career based on depression.

I wanna kill myself but, i can't.

I wanna be pretty but, i'm not.

I wanna write the world's most beautiful
monologue but, i forget how.

I wanna be happy but, i doubt if i'll ever smile again.

And i miss everything good about life.

I miss it so much :(