I take it back

I take back that it was a great year.
it wasn't at all.




And i hate myself.
I hate depression
and self loathing.
I hate my qualities
and i hate my looks.
I hate what music i like
what clothes i wear.
The paint in my room
the way my sheets smell.

I hate being single
and i hate being complicated.
I hate being left
lied to
and back stabbed.

I hate that i like girls too
i hate that it's almost a new year
i hate ignorance
and pitty.

I hate cody
i hate love.

I hate the way you made me feel.
I hate my smile.
I hate my eyes when i cry.
I hate my hair
and i hate swallowing.

I hate my dad
i hate my body.
i hate my urges
i hate my mistakes.
I hate my regret
i hate the radio
i hate winter.

I hate you
and you
and you
and you.





please fucking god
please fucking anyone
please some make me happy.

fuck
please
im fucking scared
im so god damn fucking scared.